worst day in my head.

I think i've just had, the worst day, in my head. I got up, only 4 hours of sleep. Was sure i was going to be late, again, even though i promised myself to pull it together. so i almost cried on my way to school. but i was on time, by few seconds. Then i almost cried again, my hair looked like... yh.. and i'd had the wind against me all the way. Then the teatcher taught in such an amateur way. He asked me kindly ''what is wrong?'' and i said ''i-i don't feel well'' he answered: ''Well i can see your unsatisfied with the lecture but keep it to yourself cause i dont want to look at it!''... then i walked out. i don't feel like eating. or going to school. or doing anything. i want to sleep. really. i want to pause life. most of all i dont want to eat. god i'm screwed. i hate myself. and lifes a hoe, karmas a bitch. and tomorrow theres another day. it's only tuesday... and there is only one way out. wich i wont ever take. but today i really felt depressed. to the buttom of my heart. and i hate myself.