du sårer mig

when i see the cuts, in your beautifull skin. i feel it deeper than you could ever imagine, 10 times worse, 100 times more hatefull, and it has 1000 times the effect. i feel the slits, on my skin, in my wrist, my theighs and my neck. why do i deserve this? why do you keep hurting me like this. just know. that when you die from this, like you always wanted. i'll already be dead.